Sometimes it feels like The Universe has forgotten about me! I pray for love and success. I meditate for clarity. I affirm to manifest my dreams. I write to cleanse. I do all of this, and for some time now, it feels like nothing is coming of it. Like the Universe has put me in a time out, doesn’t care enough, or is too busy training all the newbie new-agers. I keep getting this vision of the Universe as my parent; I’m the older sibling and there are all these new babies taking up all the attention, and I’m left feeling like they don’t love me anymore. Waaaah! Waaaaah!!!
'Cause let me tell you, there was a time in my early 20’s that I could manifest ANYTHING in NO TIME! ANYYYYTHING. My favorite example was when I was 24, sitting in a design meeting and saying “Man! We need star buttons!! Where the heck are we gonna find STAR BUTTONS??!!! This was before everything was cool, and star buttons were an anomaly. No more than 5 minutes later did the phone ring and a telemarketer asked “Do you need custom buttons made?” No joke. It happened. There are witnesses.
I spent this last week wallowing and meditating on why the Universe had 'abandoned' me. The voice of the Universe came through and explained that over the years it had taught me all the lessons I needed to manifest whatever I desired. They said to stop praying for them to handle my problems, and instead to pray to myself, within… That they had equipped me with an inner guide who was fully capable and even designed to answer prayers. That it’d been twiddling its thumbs for years, waiting for me to recognize its powers.
So now when I affirm or I pray, especially for earthly/human-y needs, it will be to my s-elf (this is a Linda Goodman reference, we're all little S-elves).
This is not to say that our guides, ancestors, and cosmic soul mates aren’t up there rooting for and helping us every second or every day in every way, it’s just important to know what everyone’s roles are. I now believe that we underestimate the pure potential of our s-elves, forgetting that this piece of God called our soul lives within each of us, and is a generally untapped and under-utilized piece of the puzzle.