An incredible breath work session today left me changed. The breathing portion was business as usual, I moved some energy, gained some inspiration, and had a few wonderful ideas… but it all felt a little overwhelming. I have so much on my plate right now, how can they be downloading even MORE inspiration? 40 minutes later the music stopped, I sat up, and asked “Why? Why are you giving me MORE ideas? I don’t have the space… I haven’t even made my current ideas successful!”
To those ungrateful questions did I get a very clear, peaceful, perfect answer “Dearest Hayley, YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL! You can do everything! All your limitations are self-imposed. You can both do clothing and art, drink wine, eat sugar, miss a workout, travel, have a wonderful husband, babies, whatever you want… And all while still creating and changing the world with your beautiful ideas and creations.”
I cried for a good 10 minutes. I have been living by a very strict set of rules and self-imposed guidelines to attaining joy and success. The moment I falter, I punish and ridicule myself. I had forgotten that I am limitless and perfect, and in that moment did I remember the truth.
I explained the epiphany to Eliza the instructor. “You know Hayley, it’s ok to ask for what you need in exchange for the work you’re doing for the planet,” she said. “Wait, I can NEGOTIATE WITH THE UNIVERSE???” I replied. I swear that at that moment the veil thinned and I could hear my unseen guides sigh and say “Sh*t! She knows! We got away with it for so long, now we’re gonna have to pay up!” Oh! Yes they are!!!